Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Two Down, Two to Go

I'm feeling a bit giddy today. Today isn't a particularly eventful or exciting day, I'm just giddy. I still have fantastic friends that live no where near me, but make me smile everyday. I've just been thinking about how truly blessed I am.

Kody finished finals today. He is officially half a doctor. Well, maybe he will be half a doctor after he takes boards in June. It has been such an incredible journey, as cliche as that sounds it is true. I've gone from excited to move to Tulsa to "start fresh", to hating it with every inch of my being, to finally finding my place and feeling content with our situation. I know everyone has different experiences as a "med school wife". I feel like mine has been far from ordinary and so different than anything I expected. The past two years have humbled me so much. I have never thought of myself as an outwardly prideful or conceited person. I actually feel like I am far from that, however, I have accomplished a lot in my life and I know that. Coming to Tulsa where no one knew anything about me except for what I let them know has changed my outlook on the world so much. Being a temp with an MBA will do that to you. For the longest time I was the girl whose husband was in medical school which meant I obviously couldn't be ambitious or successful because I was going to live off of him for the rest of my life. Funny how people just make assumptions, of course I know I am guilty of that as well. I finally had to decide to change that idea about me. I'm serving as a board member on the League of Women Voters, I will be the OSU SAA President next year (Vegas here I come!), I'm running races all over the city alone (very out of my comfort zone), and I've thrown myself into our class at church and finally started developing relationships with the girls. I let people in slowly and I am very cautious about that, it has been quite a challenge. I miss my life before Tulsa, but I know I love my life where it is now because I'm becoming a better version of me...and I like me. My life is always changing which makes it exciting. I love that I have no idea what God has in store for us, but it scares me to death at the same time. My ability to let go of control is slowly improving. My need to please everyone and be everything to everyone is fading as well. YAY! I'm so much more fun to be around when I'm not stressed out. :)

In other news, my parents told me they are going to pay my way to Arizona to see Robin for my birthday. I am SO excited. I haven't been there since she moved. It is about time!

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